Don't get it together

Gosh, why shall it be so difficult. I try to get a trip organised to London. Have to consider my schedule, exams, flight tickets, train tickets, school, prices and I can't get it together. However I turn and twist it something is playing up with me. It's getting more expensive and the tickets are running out I always wait to long and never f*cking learn, never do it when I should have done it. It drives me nuts and I start to panic.

I just want to go and see Des but now it looks like I don't get it together...can we manage for another 6 weeks? I dont want to!